✿ girl with the short hair ✿

It's nice to be able to write again. I haven't done this for so long and I really know that there's something in me everytime I do this. Right now I don't know what is it but I'm sure, in time, I'll figure it out. I'm here again Writing with this pen Though it's not my intention To assess this emotion. God knows that when I write It's either black or white Maybe rainy or sunny Stable or tipsy. Yes there are reasons For my emotions or decisions Something's saying something The question is, "What's the meaning?"

I don't know how to explain this, but it's not a good feeling. I was so disappointed. Maybe because of the great expectation. I guess you can't really know someone that much, especially when you have not even had a conversation with him. Everyone might look perfect and adorable, but once you know them, they might be just someone who was not worth the admiration. For whatever reason, I am hurt. I don't know exactly if it is because of the snob attitude or it is because I was humiliated. There is nothing wrong in admiring people right? So why are some people not able to handle it without hurting others? I'M NOT ANGRY, I'M JUST HURT. Not everyone deserves to be treated special because some people does not know how to appreciate it.  Well, I'll just stop with this. I might be carried by my emotions. What I have to do know is to pray for him, for forgiveness, for acceptance and be willing to understand.

"If this happens,  then I will." "If he's wearing this, then it's him." "If the next car is red, it means I have to." Signs. Signs. Signs. Many people believe that these signs are vital and something we should believe. Honestly, I have also been a victim of these. I have been relying on its power for some years now. I believed that if the moment I stated really happens, the first person I'm going to see would be the man I have been waiting for. Blinded by this belief, I became aware of the events in my life. I became hopeful for that "magical" moment to happen. Just last Monday, that moment actually happened. And I was really shocked to notice who the first person I saw was. I know him. Not that I don't like him, but I asked myself if signs were really true. I even asked some friends. One of them said that if that's something you prayed for, it might be true.  I asked for that sign two years ago and I prayed

This week has been a very good week for me. So many things happened and all of it was interesting and exciting. Of the seven days, June 20 is the best! Everything that happened on that day was just so amazing and wonderful. First was the subject Political Science 1 which has been added to my subjects for the semester and made it 15 units. Second was the bonus 2 units, Engineering Science 10b. I was so grateful and thankful for these two subjects. Finally, I completed my subjects. I can't believe that I completed it because I was so hopeless the past week and already processing the thought of being underload this semester. But God is really good and He never fails. He gave me the chance to still pursue my dream and be brave to face the challenge of making that dream come true. Lastly, the best thing that happened that day was something I want to keep secret, haha, though some friends knew it. Let's just say that it was something so appropriate for the month of June. W

Another rock to our family. It had been about 4 months since one of my uncles passed away. It was January 2012. And now, another one is gone. Both of them had been sick and seeing them having hard time to handle the sickness wasn't easy. The pain in their eyes showed though they tried to hide it. We are now in a point where the emotion is just so extreme. A while ago, he was just there and now he's gone. Seeing him hurt is painful. The way he fight hard just to take a breath hurts us. Though he was not able to talk, I know he wanted us to be strong for him. I do believe that all of these have their purpose. Maybe the only thing thing to do is to be strong and keep the faith. Crying is not a sign of weakness and letting go does not mean you are not strong. In behalf of the whole family, I wanted to thank everyone who extended their condolences and those who helped us pray for them. Praying for tito bobby and ninong lito's soul and the whole family's strength.

Last January 20, me and my dormmates/sisses/friends went to Famy, Laguna. We stayed there for 2 days and 2 nights-at ate Mira's house. Two hours of travel is tiring but the place is worth the wait. There's this cool tricycle which can load up to 6 people excluding the driver. (from left)Ate Prei, me, Ate Jarah, and Ate Julie The next day, we hiked. It was so fun and unforgettable. I really love nature. It took us 2 hours before we arrived at the river :) Love the water !!!

18th birthday is a very important event in someone's life, especially for a girl. Usually a debutante celebrates her birthday with a huge party but for me, it is not the party that matters. It's the value of being thankful for those years that have passed. I celebrated my birthday in a simple way. I went to the church and thanked God. When I got home in my aunt's house, I prepared my things because I'll be going to Los Baños because there will be a class the next day. My aunt cooked pasta which I brought in LB to share to my housemates. A week after, I celebrated my birthday in our house in Bulacan. It was really my grandfather's birthday but we decided to celebrate mine too. At the end of the day, I told my family what I want for my birthday. I said I want my medals to be framed. hehe :) It's funny 'cause I got it just yesterday, I supposed they don't have the time last year. Looking at this frame, I feel so happy and overwhelmed. In fact, I alm