✿ girl with the short hair ✿

"I'm sorry kung nasaktan kita. I'm sorry kung hindi kita napanindigan. I'm sorry kung hindi ikaw yung pinili ko. I'm sorry kung pinaramdam ko sayo na wala kang halaga. Pero ang totoo nyan, naduwag lang kasi ako e. Gusto kong malaman mo na minahal kita, na mahal pa rin kita. Maiintindihan ko kung hindi mo na ako kayang mahalin ulit pero sana  mapatawad mo ako. " -Kim Chiu, 24/7 In love Masakit ang iwan ng taong mahal mo, masakit ang lokohin ng taong pinakaimportante sayo, masakit yung saktan ka ng tanging taong nagparamdam sayo na hindi ka nag-iisa at nagpaniwala sayong kailanman ay hindi ka mag-iisa. Halos lahat naman siguro sa atin alam ang pakiramdam ng masaktan at madalas, nasa mga taong naiwan ang simpatya nating lahat pero paano naman yung mga nang-iwan? Yung mga nakasakit? Yung mga hindi nakatupad sa pangakong hindi ka mag-iisa?  Wala na ba silang karapatang masaktan tulad nung isa? Nung iniwan ka ng taong mahal mo : syempre itinanong mo sa sari

If I were to describe the previous semester (1st Sem 2013-2014) in one word, it would be "WEIRD". It's not like any of the semesters I've had (well, no two semesters are the same). What I mean is the turnover of events is really unique. I can't say that it's the brightest part of my college life but it is one of the semesters that I will forever remember. Now, I want to lookback and see how unusual this sem is. Maybe most of you won't understand why is it weird because I cannot give much details but I hope you still understand why this semester is memorable. The highlights of my 1st Semester 2013-2014: 1. First Day of Classes. I think first day always mark in anybody's memory. Mine is a beautiful one because of the beautiful people I met again after two months of vacation. Also, what I remember the most is the smile I received that day. 2. Endless Homeworks and Things to do. It is my busiest semester ever. My planner has always been  filled wit

Masaya sa pakiramdam kapag natutupad ang mga bagay na pinlano natin ahead of time,  pero minsan, mas masaya sa pakiramdam pag nangyayari ang mga magagandang bagay nang hindi natin inaasahan. Yung tipong wala ka ni isang clue sa mga mangyayari o kung may mangyayari ba talaga. Yung parang wala ka naman inaasahan na darating pero biglang nanjan na sa harapan mo. Para bang may nagthrow ng birthday surprise sayo kahit hindi mo naman talaga birthday. Mas okay na din kasi siguro na hindi mo inexpect yung pangyayari para walang takot mong haharapin kung anuman yun. Para wala kang dahilan para umatras ang umiba ng daan. Kung natatakot ka, okay lang yan. Kung hindi ka sigurado, okay lang yan. Kung naguguluhan ka, okay lang yan  Natural lang na makaramdam tayo ng kaguluhan, di kasiguraduhan at takot. Hindi natin masasabing tao tayo kung di natin mararamdaman ang mga ito. Lahat naman ay dumarating sa ganitong pagkakataon, na para bang hindi mo alam kung ano ang susunod na hakbang, kung ang u

Yesterday, I found out that my grandparents are really scared that I have a boyfriend now. I am quite surprised that they still think of that because they never fail to ask me about it everytime I'm at home. I always say that there isn't and it's the truth. Dear Nanay and Tatay, I have never found the courage to tell this to you in person. Even now, I find it easier to write it on my blog than to text you, but I hope you already know this by heart. I don't have a boyfriend. I don't even have a plan on having one until I got my degree. Your love is more than enough for me to feel that I am complete, that I am not missing something. There were times that I envy my friends because they're in a relationship, but whenever I think about you, I feel so proud that I am being obedient to you. There were boys around, but you are much more important than any of them. You trust me so much that I can't imagine myself disappointing you. I promise to wait until you

Before the exams come, I wanted to write about something I have been doing since the past week. It is something exciting for me because it's for my future husband. Oh yes, I am so futuristic haha. I always dream of my future life whenever I get a chance. It was really a good thing for me to imagine anything because it helps me to relax. It was just an idea of writing love letters in Filipino, then it became a challenge to create a romantic love letter. Suddenly, I came to think of dedicating the letters to my future husband. I don't have any idea who he is, but hopefully someday he would appreciate the letters. I have written three letters and I want to write more whenever I feel the need to tell him something. It's sweet for me and maybe for all hopeless romantic out there. Not everyone would appreciate things like that, but it's a gift. Someday, when I am already married to him, I'd be very glad to present all of those to him. One of my favorite lines is:

I really don't have plans on writing today but something inside me wants to say something. I am not that busy or problematic the past few days, maybe it's just that I want to talk to someone about anything but I can't find the right person or the right thing to talk about. It is the start of the week and I'm feeling this way. This is somehow bothering so I'd better let it out. These past days have not been full of worries. I may say that those were some of the "lightest days" of the semester. I've had a lot of time to think while walking to class, to prepare my own meal, to check on what things I needed for the coming days plus the time that I had to go home last weekend. I want to experience a lot of things, to do what I haven't done, to break the rules and don't care about what others might say but I CAN'T. I've always been the obedient kid because I don't want to be blamed for being stupid. I AM AFRAID. People around me mig