✿ girl with the short hair ✿

He was at an 8-hour work for the day. I went to his office and made an excuse to the receptionist so she will let me see him. I waited outside and in a while, he came down to see me. As soon as he reached me, I hugged him and cried hard. When the emotions subside, we walked home. I woke up.

"Is it okay if I close my eyes? Is it okay if I take my time just for a little while? - It's Okay, Clara Benin ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MnVNeQiCQE ) Today, I had the opportunity to go out of the house and run errands in Makati (I live in Manila). On  the way, I can't help but feel different emotions rushing through me: happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, hopefulness, gratefulness, among others. I'm happy because I was able to go out and breathe different air. Sad because everything feels different. Makati is a very familiar place to me since I work there but today it was nothing like how I used to remember it. Angry with our government because I saw people on the streets knocking on the car windows, asking for money to help them survive. They weren't supposed to be there; they were supposed to be taken care of by the people in power. But they're not. Frustrated that after almost two months, we're still stuck at home without assurance on wh...

Ang puso ko'y inanod... inanod, nalunod Damdamin ay tinangay tungo doon sa pusod Sa gitna, pinakamalalim, ngunit tinatanging bukod Ang puso ko'y inanod, malugod na sumunod. Hinarap ang mga alon at balakid Sa hampas ng tubig pinilit di mamanhid Nahulog ako at napailalim Marating lang ang iyong piling. Nilangoy ang dagat ng iyong pagmamahal Sa pag-asa na ako'y itatanghal Bilang nag-iisang taong ihaharap sa Maykapal At patunay na may katuparan ang mga dasal.

It was as clear as the sea A crystal memory to me That very last time When eveything's fine. I held your hand, My number one fan, Hoping and praying That there'll be no mourning. Still, I hold on I just can't move on I will never let go Dear, I miss you so!

Hopeless romantic daw ang tawag sa mga katulad ko. Hindi ako tatanggi dahil inaamin ko na ganun talaga ako. Mahilig sa mga love stories at kung anu-anong romantic kahit ano pang medium. Movies, books, music, pero higit sa lahat, pinakagusto ko ang mga totoong kwento. Kaya siguro mahilig ako sa mga wedding proposal, kasal at Aldub. Kanina lang, napadaan ako sa San Agustin Church (isa sa mga pinakagusto kong simbahan) at naabutan ko ang pagsisimula ng isang kasal. Kinapalan ko ang mukha ko at pumasok sa loob. Paborito ko kasi yung part na pagpasok ng bride sa pinto ng simbahan. Para sa akin, yun ang pinakamagical na bahagi ng isang kasal. Ang ganda nung bride. Medyo nanginginig sya sa halu-halong emosyon. Tila hindi nya alam kung ngingiti ba sya habang naglalakad o hahayaang tumulo ang luha sa sobrang kaligayahan hanggang sa matanaw ko ang groom. May hawak sya na panyo at nagpapahid ng luha sa kanyang pisngi. Ilang sandali lang bago ko isulat ito ay nanonood ako ng Wagas. Isang ...

My love, I'm sorry for the past month. It has been very hard for both of us, but look at where we are now. We survived! It has been almost two years since that day in Pangasinan and I am proud to say that we've grown individually and together. These past few days, I wasn't really thinking much about us or about our future which is unusual. I guess it's the thesis and projects that has been taking most of my time. But, you know what? Just recently, I realized certain things in you that makes you beautiful. You are the one who usually use that word (and sometimes the opposite, hahahuhu) to refer to me but now, I'm calling you BEAUTIFUL because you truly are. You are intellectually beautiful, indeed. And I like that very very much about you. Though it's intimidating sometimes, you still challenge me to beat your exam scores which makes me study harder and be the best in school that I can be. The most recent that I can remember is the ABE 72 1st exam in w...

Last weekend, I had the chance to share a love story to my brothers and sisters in YFC. I'm sharing this here now because I'd also like to encourage everyone who's struggling with relationships, not necessarily romantic relationships. Have faith! Trust God's plan! Love truly! December 1, 2012. It was our family's annual thanksgiving and wish day. For that year I prayed for love. Medyo matagal ko na rin kasing ipinagdadasal yung taong ipagkakaloob Nya sa akin pero simula nung pagkakataon lang na yun ko sinabi sa Kanya na handa na po ako. As we know, God's answer can be a YES, NO or WAIT. So I waited while continuously praying. August 16, 2013. In Pangasinan, a friend confessed his admiration. I had no idea so everything was a shock. Like other people awkward para sa akin nung umpisa kasi kaibigan ko e. Nakkwento ko pa sa kanya yung mga crushes ko at ganun din sya. We were each other's confidant pagdating sa mga crush kaya nagulat talaga ako sa sinabi...

Isang araw, naglalakad ako sa Forestry. Nakasalubong ko ang isang tita na nagtatrabaho sa isang office ng UPLB. Nag-usap kami at nagkumustahan Tinanong ko sya kung pwede pa ba ako mag SA sa kanila. Tapos na yata kasi ang period para mag-apply. Sinabi nya sakin na pwede daw. Irerequest na lang daw nila ulit sa OSA na kukuha pa sila ng isa pa para makuha nila ako. Sobrang nagpasalamat ako sa kanya. Nakarating kami sa sakayan ng jeep at habang naghihintay, maraming ibang sasakyan ang dumaan. Hanggang sa isang malaking truck ang sunod na dumaan at sa di inaasahan … nagulungan ng truck ang kanang paa ko. Dugo. Maraming dugo. Pilit kong hinahanap sa paa ko ang sugat na pinagmumulan ng dugo ngunit masyadong marami ito na tila tinatakpan na ang buong paa ko. Sa kabila nito, wala akong nararamdamang  sakit. Naglakad kami ni tita ng kaunti. Patuloy sa pag-iwan ng bakas ang paa ko sa kalsada. Sumakay kami sa isang coaster na puro mga gradeschool students ang nakasakay. Bumaba kami sa...

Things change, people change and as time passes by, our perspective about people and things changes too. We are all growing old and up. Some may take a lot more years to be grown up, others might take only a few. It does not matter because what's important is that we have that point in our lives when we finally realize that we've changed from being the child who always dream to the matured one who's making that dream come true. At twenty, I can say that I have already passed the transition stage. Now, I view things differently in a better way. I noticed that there are particular aspects of life that looks really different this time: love; relationship; commitment; career; and success. As I grow up, these matters unraveled their true meaning or should I say, accurate meaning to me. It's in the way I talk about these things to other people that made me realize how much my perspective changed. LOVE In high school, I say "Love is magic." when asked wh...

I have been wanting to write this for so long. But I never got enough motivation to do so. Now, after watching a whole season of a TV series, I know I'm ready to write. For the past months I believe I'm not truly okay. There are certain things that happened which hurt me and made it hard for me to be okay. For some, it might not be a big deal but for me, being betrayed by a friend is a big deal. Everyone might have experienced the same… trusting someone, telling them almost everything about you, letting them know the deep parts of yourself especially your thoughts and feelings and suddenly, they do something that makes you want to take everything back. It is painful. It makes you feel like you're a mess for deciding to trust them. Everything just makes you feel like you are such a disappointment. It is indeed a risk to befriend someone and with that comes the responsibility for making that friendship real. Years, months, weeks, days...it's not determined by ...

"Bakit ka ganyan? Nakakainis ka." Paulit-ulit kong sinabi sayo yun paglabas ko ng pinto. Sobra ka naman kasi e...sobrang sweet. At sobrang napasaya mo ako. Ang hirap mag-isip ng sasabihin kasi nakakatameme talaga hanggang ngayon. Thank you! Hindi ko akalaing may makakaappreciate sakin gaya ng kung paano mo ako iappreciate. Hindi ko inasahan na may gagawa ng mga sweet na bagay para sa akin katulad ng mga ginagawa mo. Hindi ko inexpect na sasagutin agad ni God yung panalangin ko. Isa lang 'to sa mga sobrang sweet na ginawa mo at kahit paulit-ulit na ako, gusto ko pa rin sabihin na naappreciate ko...sobra. Salamat.

That night, you asked her what song does she dedicates to you. She didn't answer. Not that there is nothing she can say, but that moment is not enough to list all the songs that she want to sing to you. The past days have been enough to remember and list some of those: 1.  Little Things - Colbie Caillat " The little things you do to me Are taking me over, I wanna show ya Everything inside of me Oh, like a nervous heart that is crazy beating." 2.  Say it Again - Marie Digby " Say it again for me Cause I love the way it feels when you are Tellin' me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again" 3. Cherish - MYMP "Cherish the thought of always having you here by my side Baby, I cherish the joy you keep bringing into my life I'm always singing it Cherish your strength you got the power to make me feel good ...

Gusto natin maging masaya. Sino ba naman sa atin ang gusto ng kalungkutan? Dahil dito, mas pinipili nating tingnan ang kagandahan ng mga bagay at mas gusto nating umasa na lahat ay magiging maayos. Sapat na nga bang piliin at umasa sa "bright side" sa lahat ng pagkakataon? O kailangan din namang maging bukas sa realidad ng buhay na hindi parating maliwanag? Simula nung unang namulat ang mata ko sa kalungkutan ng buhay, itinatak ko sa aking isip na kailangan kong tingnan ang "bright side" ng kalungkutang nararanasan ko. Hanggang sa matutunan kong maging tunay na masaya, naniwala ako sa "bright side". Kadikit nun ang pag-asa kong lahat ng mangyayari sa akin ay may "bright side". Ngunit ngayong unti-unti ko nang naiintindihan ang realidad ng buhay, unti-unti rin nawala sa mga pangyayari ang kinang ng "bright side" nito. Ilang beses na din na naging blanko na ang lahat, wala ni katiting na liwanag. Tila nawalan ng silbi ang mga mata ko...

There will always be that moment when you'll finally realize that what you're doing is wrong and that it's time to change. I have a sister. She's three years younger than me. All my life, I know, I have never been a good sister to her. She always tell me, "Buti pa sa ibang tao, mabait ka. Sa akin, hindi." She's right. I was always mad at her. I can't trace why I treat her so rude. In fact, I can still remember how happy I am when I first saw her...our bunso. We grew almost apart. I rarely talk to her and I don't usually help her with her academic requirements. Nevertheless, she was always there for me. Whatever help I needed  from her and whatever favor I asked, she's willing to give. She was always the better sister and I really admire her for being so nice to me even though I don't reciprocate the kindness. Lately, our family has been through something. It was painful and hard for everyone but we all stayed strong. One weekend...

Valentine's Day is coming and I listed some surprise ideas for your special someone. It's just the first part and I'll do my best to finish the second part this week. If you want to ask anything about the surprise, just contact me. Also, if you're planning to do one of these surprises, I'd be willing to help you :) Sorry if I made this as if the guy is the one who's planning the surprise but girls, you can still do these surprises for your guy. ·           LOVE IS IN THE AIR. Use balloons for your surprise. You can put as many as you can in a room, maybe it would be sweet if she’ll wake up with all the balloons in her room or she’ll come home with it. You can also make it sweeter and cheesier by attaching photos in the balloons or putting notes inside each of the balloons. ·          HEARTS AND CRAFTS. This one takes more effort which makes it more special. Ø   Make a scrapbook about your love stor...

"I'm sorry kung nasaktan kita. I'm sorry kung hindi kita napanindigan. I'm sorry kung hindi ikaw yung pinili ko. I'm sorry kung pinaramdam ko sayo na wala kang halaga. Pero ang totoo nyan, naduwag lang kasi ako e. Gusto kong malaman mo na minahal kita, na mahal pa rin kita. Maiintindihan ko kung hindi mo na ako kayang mahalin ulit pero sana  mapatawad mo ako. " -Kim Chiu, 24/7 In love Masakit ang iwan ng taong mahal mo, masakit ang lokohin ng taong pinakaimportante sayo, masakit yung saktan ka ng tanging taong nagparamdam sayo na hindi ka nag-iisa at nagpaniwala sayong kailanman ay hindi ka mag-iisa. Halos lahat naman siguro sa atin alam ang pakiramdam ng masaktan at madalas, nasa mga taong naiwan ang simpatya nating lahat pero paano naman yung mga nang-iwan? Yung mga nakasakit? Yung mga hindi nakatupad sa pangakong hindi ka mag-iisa?  Wala na ba silang karapatang masaktan tulad nung isa? Nung iniwan ka ng taong mahal mo : syempre itinanong mo sa sari...

If I were to describe the previous semester (1st Sem 2013-2014) in one word, it would be "WEIRD". It's not like any of the semesters I've had (well, no two semesters are the same). What I mean is the turnover of events is really unique. I can't say that it's the brightest part of my college life but it is one of the semesters that I will forever remember. Now, I want to lookback and see how unusual this sem is. Maybe most of you won't understand why is it weird because I cannot give much details but I hope you still understand why this semester is memorable. The highlights of my 1st Semester 2013-2014: 1. First Day of Classes. I think first day always mark in anybody's memory. Mine is a beautiful one because of the beautiful people I met again after two months of vacation. Also, what I remember the most is the smile I received that day. 2. Endless Homeworks and Things to do. It is my busiest semester ever. My planner has always been  filled wit...

Masaya sa pakiramdam kapag natutupad ang mga bagay na pinlano natin ahead of time,  pero minsan, mas masaya sa pakiramdam pag nangyayari ang mga magagandang bagay nang hindi natin inaasahan. Yung tipong wala ka ni isang clue sa mga mangyayari o kung may mangyayari ba talaga. Yung parang wala ka naman inaasahan na darating pero biglang nanjan na sa harapan mo. Para bang may nagthrow ng birthday surprise sayo kahit hindi mo naman talaga birthday. Mas okay na din kasi siguro na hindi mo inexpect yung pangyayari para walang takot mong haharapin kung anuman yun. Para wala kang dahilan para umatras ang umiba ng daan. Kung natatakot ka, okay lang yan. Kung hindi ka sigurado, okay lang yan. Kung naguguluhan ka, okay lang yan  Natural lang na makaramdam tayo ng kaguluhan, di kasiguraduhan at takot. Hindi natin masasabing tao tayo kung di natin mararamdaman ang mga ito. Lahat naman ay dumarating sa ganitong pagkakataon, na para bang hindi mo alam kung ano ang susunod na hakba...

Yesterday, I found out that my grandparents are really scared that I have a boyfriend now. I am quite surprised that they still think of that because they never fail to ask me about it everytime I'm at home. I always say that there isn't and it's the truth. Dear Nanay and Tatay, I have never found the courage to tell this to you in person. Even now, I find it easier to write it on my blog than to text you, but I hope you already know this by heart. I don't have a boyfriend. I don't even have a plan on having one until I got my degree. Your love is more than enough for me to feel that I am complete, that I am not missing something. There were times that I envy my friends because they're in a relationship, but whenever I think about you, I feel so proud that I am being obedient to you. There were boys around, but you are much more important than any of them. You trust me so much that I can't imagine myself disappointing you. I promise to wait until you...

Before the exams come, I wanted to write about something I have been doing since the past week. It is something exciting for me because it's for my future husband. Oh yes, I am so futuristic haha. I always dream of my future life whenever I get a chance. It was really a good thing for me to imagine anything because it helps me to relax. It was just an idea of writing love letters in Filipino, then it became a challenge to create a romantic love letter. Suddenly, I came to think of dedicating the letters to my future husband. I don't have any idea who he is, but hopefully someday he would appreciate the letters. I have written three letters and I want to write more whenever I feel the need to tell him something. It's sweet for me and maybe for all hopeless romantic out there. Not everyone would appreciate things like that, but it's a gift. Someday, when I am already married to him, I'd be very glad to present all of those to him. One of my favorite lines is: ...